Pistol Whipped

I know you won’t remember what this Sunday is. I know you won’t remember what may 19th 2010 was. I know I hold no significance in your life. But this week has been rough for me. It has me thinking back to my senior year and how you were all i wanted. I remember not being able to take my eyes off you at my prom. I remember the first thing you ever texted me. I remember that macaroni and cheese pizza we made. I remember my first drink, a drink you made me. I remember our first kiss and how you had to ask me if you could. I remember you decorating my car for graduation. I remember you being there at my graduation…. With her. I remember you coming to my house with a hickey on your neck… From her. I remember you parking a block away to hide…. From her. I remember staying the night with you. The most amazing night of my life…. And you left me for her…. You lied to me. For four years. Lead me on, made me think you cared. You never did. I don’t even know if you know how to love anyone but yourself. And regardless of that i still loved you. You’re the only girl that I fell in love with, the only girl who ever broke my heart. The only girl that still, to this day, I would drop everything to be with. I’m trying to let myself be loved right now, and I’m trying to fall in love again. But I want to be in love with you. And i can’t. So cheers to may 19th, a day that will always be locked in my memory. I love you and always will. No matter how insignificant I am to you. Good luck with your engagement. Wedding soon I’m assuming since you guys can get married now….